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martinekenblog: Amazing Sparkle Palace Cocktail Table my kind...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 21:44:28 -0500

Amazing Sparkle Palace Cocktail Table

my kind of table <3!

avianna: officerlollipop: soranoo: stophatingyourbody: Let...

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 21:15:42 -0500

officerlollipop:

soranoo:

stophatingyourbody:

Let me tell you, ladies and gentlemen… being thin DOES NOT mean your life is just automatically better, that you’ll ALWAYS be happy, or that you’re somehow some goddess of beauty.

I’ve been “underweight” for my entire life.

My first day of school in kindergarten, my mom was interrogated by “concerned” parents. … “Do you feed your daughter?” or “is she normally that skinny?”

Throughout my childhood, people would ask, “are you anorexic or something? I bet you’re bulimic”. This isn’t a compliment. It makes me feel like you’re saying that I don’t believe that I’m beautiful, that you don’t see me as beautiful, and that I look down on anyone that weighs more than me. I have spent years trying to prove that I’m not self-hating, not trying to be skinnier, and not concerned about my weight. Somewhere around middle school, I actually had to sort of train myself to avoid the bathroom (even if I had to pee) for 2-3 hours after eating to make sure nobody actually thought I was making myself puke up my meal. I do it unconsciously now. Throwing up is actually on my list of phobias, on the top 3 (next to spiders… I’m not really afraid of needles anymore, thanks to IV class).

I’m like a teenage boy, I have to eat as much as possible all of the time. I’m hypoglycemic, so if I don’t eat every two hours or so, I get extremely grouchy, exhausted, and irritable.

EVERY SINGLE TIME I go to my doctor’s office, she comments on my weight. “oh, you’re still the same weight. How many meals per day do you eat?” *concerned expression* I feel like I’m being INTERROGATED because it’s in my genetic code to be thin. Two words: Fast metabolism.

My doctor finally did find out that I have a digestive issue… I’m gluten and dairy intolerant. People tend to want to encourage me to eat all of the time, so when they offer me food and I have to deny, the look they give is so… judgmental.
I explain, “I’m sorry, that actually used to be one of my favorite foods and it looks and smells SO GOOD, you have no idea, but I’m gluten and dairy intolerant.” They think I’m on this diet to LOSE WEIGHT. Almost every time, they say… “oh, so THAT’S why you’re so skinny!” … no.
I tell them, I’m on this diet because it is actually supposed to help me GAIN weight. And it is! The intolerance means that my body has been unable to properly absorb some vital nutrients! Don’t get me wrong though, my whole family looks like this. My mom was 90 lbs when she got married and she doesn’t have a single health problem.
People used to always watch what I was eating, and would scoff if I left anything behind.

I had a friend who suffered from an eating disorder and she starved herself to try to get to my size. She copied everything I did to try to get the same results. It broke my heart when I found out.

Hurtful things that have been said to me because I have a fast metabolism:

Nobody wants to fuck a bag of coat hangers

Nobody can cuddle with a stack of bones

You call me beautiful but you don’t understand because you’re skinny.

You don’t actually think I’m pretty (this is when I compliment someone that complains to me about weight). You’re skinny.

Are you anorexic or something?

oooooh, so THAT’S why you’re so skinny

I’ll carry this, I don’t want you to break.

I’m going to feed you a pound cake a day until you gain some weight.

Girl, you need some MEAT on your bones.

Why don’t you just try to eat more?

REAL women have curves.

If you want boobs, just gain some weight! It’s that simple!

Why don’t you fill out your training bra? You’re supposed to be able to fill the whole cup.

You don’t need a diet, you’re skinny enough as it is!!

Here, take my food. You look like you’re dying.

You’re lucky, you can get anything you want at any store!

You must be size 0! (actually, no. I have HIPS. I can’t even squeeze in to a size 0)

I’ve been interrogated, devalued, and unappreciated for most of my life simply because I’m thin. THIS IS THE WAY I WAS BORN. I truly think that women of all shapes and sizes are beautiful, but somehow, when I compliment heavier women, they don’t think I’m NOT being genuine.

Even with all of this, I still think I’m beautiful. I still love my body. I still appreciate myself and make sure my body is in balance.

Ladies, Gentlemen… “Skinny is beautiful” is an unrealistic standard set by the media. Being thin, again, does not mean you’ll be happy. It does not mean you’ll be accepted.

ACCEPT YOURSELF, LOVE YOURSELF, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. Only then will you be happy, healthy, and even accepted by other people’s standards. If you’re trying to impress people that are pushing you to unrealistic standards, THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS.

I used to struggle with myself. I used to think that because of my thinness, I looked like a terminally ill patient and that I wasn’t a real woman because I didn’t have an ample bosom or sexy curves, or meaty thighs.

I fought through that self doubt IMPOSED BY OTHER PEOPLES’ MISPLACED JEALOUSIES AND UNREALISTIC STANDARDS. I am BEAUTIFUL as I am, because this is how I was made to be. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL THE WAY YOU ARE, BECAUSE THAT IS THE WAY YOU WERE MADE TO BE.

WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT!

The secret to beauty? SELF CONFIDENCE!!!!!!

again, I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH!! If your “Friends” are telling you that you aren’t pretty, or if you’d be pretty if you did this or that, or you need to lose/gain weight… THESE PEOPLE ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS. THEY WILL NEVER BE TRUE FRIENDS. AND THEY WILL NEVER HELP YOU BE HAPPY.

STAND STRONG IN WHO YOU ARE!!!! LOVE YOURSELF!!!! LOVE OTHERS!!! TAKE HOLD OF WHAT YOU HAVE AND OWN IT!

The Problem With Skinny Bashing - Article

My blog

BE BRAVE! JOIN THE BODY PEACE REVOLUTION!

^^^^^^^THIS!
I can’t tell you HOW many times I’ve been made fun of or called names or been called lucky because I’m underweight. NO! STOP! It’s not fun.

This.
The other thing that bothers me is height. Everyone calls me tiny for being 4’11” and says they’re jealous of my height and it really bothers me because I WANT to be taller but I can’t just make myself grow :< being called tiny or a midget belittles me and it’s not a compliment :««

This was totally me growing up. So many snide remarks. Teachers giving my mother looks and calling her up because they thought she didn’t feed me right or I had an eating disorder. Girls telling me I couldn’t complain about how I looked cause I was skinny. I could never talk about myself or my feelings hardly EVER because people would just use my body against me. *Sigh* This was most my life.

I graduated from 8th Grade weighing 64 lbs. I graduated high school 95 lbs. I had to drink a Slim Fast along with my breakfast, every morning. That’s TWO breakfasts, every morning. I had so many issues with how I looked because I was skinny and people complained that I had a specialist to talk to about my mental health and diet. It was horrible feeling.

LUCKILY! When I hit about 22, I actually started gaining weight. I’m healthy now (despite my SKINNY FAT or whatever 4chan called it so many years ago).

It’s funny I say luckily. I almost hate that I say luckily. But at least people don’t make prejudgments of me about my weight now.

/End of Relating Skinny Rant

I relate to this so much.

People really need to learn to respect others. The grass is not greener on the other side people who struggle with being underweight aren’t “lucky”

Regarddless of one’s weight there needs to be respect. I respect everyone else, but have many times never received it in return.

And friends it’s not ok to comment about your skinny/thin/underweight friend. I don’t comment on anyone’s weight, yet time and time again it always happens that people can freely comment on my weight?

I respect others, so all i ask is for some respect in return.

windofthestars: EXPLOSIONS. DIE HARD. PRINT SALE. Sale goes...

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 19:28:40 -0500

windofthestars:

EXPLOSIONS. DIE HARD. PRINT SALE.

Sale goes from now until Friday at 11:59pm pst.
Windofthestars.etsy.com

Yippie Kai-Yay Mother Fucker!

My friends cosplay prints up for grabs :D

this is very true for me…

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 17:26:00 -0500

this is very true for me…

.Costumes for sale -»...

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:35:00 -0500

.Costumes for sale -» http://www.ebay.com/sch/daydreamernessa/m.html?_nkw&_armrs=1&_from&_ipg&_trksid=p3686

Copied from my facebook-»>

I’ll be very up front about a recent event in my personal life: I was laid off. It’s a very surreal experience, and am still trying to figure out what to do to be honest.

SO that’s where this post comes in, this is my first batch of ebay auctions. Please see above link and here-» http://www.ebay.com/sch/daydreamernessa/m.html?_nkw&_armrs=1&_from&_ipg&_trksid=p3686

If you can please please PLEASE plaster this anywhere on your personal page or on your on Facebook page, tumblr whatever!- i’d be eternally grateful and any help to spread this is appreciated!

With that said I hope these go to a good home and thank you for looking! ♥ ♥ ♥

laughingsquid: The Nature of Ambition

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 00:13:49 -0500

laughingsquid:

The Nature of Ambition

Facebook giveaway Please check out this post for details, this...

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 21:49:57 -0500

Facebook giveaway

Please check out this post for details, this is not on tumblr, it is on facebook, i’m posting this here to spread the word!

Please like + share the giveaway image to participate! Thank you!!

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=507558765963330&set=a.189174751135068.62510.142058442513366&type=1&relevant_count=1

windofthestars: dulceaphel: Sailor Scouts in their Civvies!...

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:46:41 -0500

windofthestars:

dulceaphel:

Sailor Scouts in their Civvies! Took the picture from behind b/c it looked like it was just them in real life crossing the street to go to the arcade or something ahh~ *fangirl moment* <3 they were really nice!

Hey look it’s me and my girls. :D Thanks for snapping this photo, as it did come out really cute.

Ami is MisspandaCosplay, Makoto is Lady Staba, Usagi is me, Rei is Daydeamernessa

IT’S US!! thank you!

.Senshi. Rei by Daydreamernessa / Usagi by Windofthestars /...

Mon, 07 Jan 2013 22:37:51 -0500

.Senshi.

Rei by Daydreamernessa / Usagi by Windofthestars / Makoto by Ladystaba / Ami by Misspanda

i don’t normally dig xmas outfits, but yukiho is wearing a...

Thu, 06 Dec 2012 00:50:51 -0500

i don’t normally dig xmas outfits, but yukiho is wearing a really cute one here!

cocorosalie: beanbells: ITEMS ☾Sailor Moon Manga Box Set:...

Tue, 04 Dec 2012 02:08:06 -0500

cocorosalie:

beanbells:

ITEMS

☾Sailor Moon Manga Box Set: Volumes 1-6☽

☾6 Sailor Moon stickers☽

☾Sailor Moon plushie☽

☾2 Sailor Moon plastic folders☽

☾Keep Calm and Have A Cupcake notebook☽(…ok this isn’t Sailor Moon but it’s cute and I’ll never use it.)

DEADLINE

☾This give away end Christmas Eve, December 24th! I’ll announce the winner Christmas day and ship the prizes within the week. ☽

RULES

☾ Reblogs and likes will both be counted! No limit on reblogs. Every reblog or like counts as an entry! ☽

☾You don’t have to be following me to win, but if you want to that would be rad!☽

☾The winner will be randomly selected and messaged through tumblr. ☽

☾Make sure your askbox is open so that I can tell you that you’ve won.☽

☾You’ll have to be comfortable with giving your address or PO Box to me so I can ship it to you.☽

☾I will ship internationally!☽

GOOD LUCK!!!

omg

yes

digitaldestruction: FLCL / フリクリ Ahhh i always liked the second...

Mon, 22 Oct 2012 22:07:00 -0400

digitaldestruction:

FLCL / フリクリ

Ahhh i always liked the second one down on the left- thought it was the cutest gif when I was younger and people still used livejournal’s and used it for there icons /weird memory lol i really liked the subtle animation like that, but this anime overall had really great animation

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Sat, 13 Oct 2012 21:39:00 -0400

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Hi guys! I’m selling a cosplay.com wig, that is brand new and never been worn. I have no need for it and want to clear out some wigs. Check out this link for the ad :)

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.Poison Ivy quick sketch portrait. a lot of stuff wrong with...

Sat, 06 Oct 2012 19:01:08 -0400

.Poison Ivy quick sketch portrait.

a lot of stuff wrong with this, but I had fun drawing it!

.Asuka. I do not know the artists… but I have a huge Asuka...

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 03:02:34 -0400

.Asuka.

I do not know the artists… but I have a huge Asuka folder figured i’d share some from it~

dearmykeys: by ゆ rin X archer <3 ! will always be my...

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 02:44:30 -0400

dearmykeys:

by ゆ

rin X archer <3 ! will always be my fave.

pennyshipswincest: Do you ever talk to people irl and you have these normal conversations but the...

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 02:43:41 -0400

pennyshipswincest:

Do you ever talk to people irl and you have these normal conversations but the whole time you’re just thinking “you have NO idea about the weird shit I do on the internet”

Forget about the internet, what about in real life OTL… Ah the life of a cosplayer!

.Street Fighter. I have no idea why i haven’t shared more...

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 21:56:00 -0400

.Street Fighter.

I have no idea why i haven’t shared more of my Chun Li on here, so there you go! debuted at fanime 2012.

I could go off into how much fun i had in this costume, ad enjoyed being this character, it’s something that has always been floatin in my head, and to do it, is very amazing. I just need to not have spiked gauntlets that don’t kill my wrists cause they are like weights and are heavy haha

photographers- Joseph Chi Lin, and Miss Panda!

.Antlers. Sorry for poor cell-phone quality with tons of...

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 21:51:18 -0400

.Antlers.

Sorry for poor cell-phone quality with tons of shadows, but this is an old quick sketch inspired by fashion shoots and artwork with this type of hair styling!

.Sailor Cosmos.Please check out the larger uploaded...

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 20:26:00 -0400

.Sailor Cosmos.

Please check out the larger uploaded photo’s here—» http://daydreamernessa.deviantart.com/art/Sailor-Cosmos-326343819

Myself in my Sailor Cosmos. I have many dream costumes, but this was my first from 13 years ago now, and completed it back in 2009. Crazy how time flies.